I might end up in another state facility because of evv.  Every time I have been in state placements I have been beaten and heavily sedated and abused.  I take a medication that saves my life and if I don't get it I can die.  Once I almost died because I was told to shut up, but I didn't, so they gave me a shot that put me to sleep.  I slept through my important medication dosage, and they had to call the doctor to get help for me when I woke up shaking and unable to talk from not getting my medication dosage on time.  I don't want to live a life always being afraid of dying...it isn't living...